Drinking, drugging, cheating, lying, sloth, gluttony, greed, depression, isolation, neglection & a Marriage in trouble...........

All of the above and more, can you imagine? First you make the biggest mistake of your life when you were told the mistake would make it all just "go away". They were wrong, they lied, my life just got worse.

I tried to get past what I went through, but 2 weeks later I got a letter from the clinic telling me to come back, but they didn't say why. I was a nursing student and something told me that was not right. I went back for an ultrasound and they still would not tell me why, but I soon got some clues. I requested my medical records and looked at the pathology report. On my report NO BABY BODY PARTS were found! Nothing, nada. Then I called the clinic and asked what this meant, and why were there no parts & I wanted to know just what the hell they did to me. The more I pryed, the more they denied. I began to feel crazy, and I put it out of my mind.

I then entered the 7 stages of grief. I started to deny what happened. I started to travel, anywhere to get away from the scene of the crime. I went to Washington DC because I felt my soul was driving me to go there for some reason. The reason was to wake me up to what abortion is and what it leads to. I found this in the Wash. DC National Holocaust Museum. Some of you will think what's that got to do with anything? It made me realize we are in a holocaust of our own, it just hasn't ended yet.

I developed severe depression and laid in bed for days on end. I had graduated from a local University on 5/2/99 and I had passed my

N-CLEX test and I was officially an RN at that point, but I really didn't care anymore. All I had worked for seemed pointless, after what I had just done. My Marriage was in serious trouble, we didn't talk, and I began to hate my husband. My two children suffered because I couldn't play with them because I was so depressed, and because I also felt I didn't deserve their love after I had murdered their sibling.

After 2 years of torment mentally, my health then started getting bad.

I developed sleep apnea from the weight gain associated with the severe depression. I also developed high blood pressure from the sleep apnea. It all began to become a downward spiral out of my control. So one day I had an idea, I would fight back against the injustice I had suffered.

I asked my OBGYN to review my record from the clinic. He told me I had a blighted ovum. I was devasted and relieved at the same time. What it meant was I HADN'T KILLED MY BABY, but, I should have had a D&C and the abortion clinic did not tell me this because they missed it due to the abortionist DID NOT READ MY ULTRASOUND. Is that good, quality, professional medical care? I think not.

I filed suit and found that I am not the only woman they have harmed. They have a history of malpractice dating back to 1985, and the officials in Illinois are doing nothing to stop it. So, I filed a complaint against the abortionists license & sued for malpractice. I also spoke out in an interview and told my story, and once that happened they sued me, my attorney & KMOV TV for $1million each. It was a scare tactic that unfortunately they fell for it. Then it was me holding the bag. I was 4 months pregnant and this abortion clinic that cares for womens health so much sues me as I carried my 3rd child, how obscene! Talk about abusing a woman!

So, to make it short many attorney's got involved, there were backdoor dealings and my two attorneys tried to get me to sign a gag order that the abortionist wanted. I told them they were crazy! They dropped me as a client, then finally I found a real gentleman attorney who came to the rescue and he got the suit against me dismissed. I give him credit, for me being able to tell you this story right now. Since I have my rights, I will contniue to speak out about the horror of abortion and I will fight it until my dying breath.

I am writing my account of this strange and horrid tale, and it will be out soon. Like my Mom said, I am still writing the final chapters of this story because the Post Abortion Syndrome left me with emotional & actual physical damage that is still in the process of being repaired. I went through 3 surgeries after my abortion to stop endometriosis, and that is now in remission. Now I battle sleep apnea and on 2/28/06 I will undergo a major operation to restore my body & my sleep. Keep in mind this clinic never paid one cent in restitution to me for all they put me through, and I have had medical bills a mile high. If the Poor-Choicers call that the right of women, to have their health ruined then they've got it totally wrong. I am a Mom of 3 and due to the aftermath of my abortion, at this point I can't even work now because I am disabled thanks to what this place did to me, but there is true HOPE. God has given me strength to carry this burden, and soon I believe it will be totally lifted off me. Please keep me in your prayers as I approach this pivotal moment in my life. If this condition is reversed, I will be restored to the woman I once was long before the "A" word ever disrupted my life. God Bless everybody that has helped me thus far, and I pray I will soon be able to carry on the fight to fully.........................

CLOSE HOPE CLINIC!!!!!!!!!!!!